It was never about the world being too big, it was more like she was too much for the world to handle. —Robert M. Drake
I demand consistency. I need to know who you’re talking to at random times of the day. I need to see where you’ve been on the late hours when you’re supposed to be in bed.
I have to read chats on your phone from people that I am unfamiliar with. I have to be in your mom’s birthday celebration with the rest of the family. I have to hear what the new office girl had told you while certainly blushing pink.
I need to feel that the bar you set on the first date will ring on that same exact level every single day.
I demand patience. I am highly sensitive. If you raise your voice even in the slightest tone I will be offended. If you change your social media password without my knowledge I will require acceptable answers and if ever you hang up on my phone call, boy you better be prepared.
If you excuse yourself for the weekend, the reason should only be about your health, or your family, or your boss, or the Pope. Other explanation will be thrown in the garbage.
Sometimes I will bring out an extra heated argument for the little things and other times I will just nod off on bigger issues.
I’m sorry but I need you to stay patient with me in all my mood swings.
I do not like socializing with people. I do not like reshaping and recoloring myself to fit into what is expected of me. I doubt myself everyday and I do not need another pile of (!!!)
Most of all I demand acceptance.
It’s either you accept me with all my flaws or you don’t.
I feel emotions in their extremes and rarely the in-betweens. Most of the time I cannot be just sad. I will feel ache in my chest and dryness in my throat.
Honey I cannot be just happy. I will be high in the clouds and be intoxicatingly inspired to do things. I cannot be just fine. I’d be lying if I ever tell you that.
I know I am too much to handle and this might be too much to ask but if I can have an extra wish, can you stay with me?
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Hello my name is Princess of The Mindful Modus, a blogger on a mission of helping people redirect anxiety by integrating mindful practices to everyday, mundane self care routines. All the contents of my blog are decaf-initely free but a coffee can greatly help me stay awake! Thank you so much!